October 23, 2013 by Jakob
“Have patience with everything that remains unsolved in your heart.
…live in the question.”
― Rainer Maria Rilke, Letters to a Young Poet
On the path towards this ordination, it occurs to me that the ordination of Neutrality is of central meaning. I described this around the time I was in Poland last – how neutrality is not about passivity, but is rather a source of extreme inner power. When one arrives at some conclusion deeply rooted in truth without the obfuscation of personal interests from the ego, the effect is impressive.
And so this concept is extrapolated to the way of living life from the perspective of mastery. Contextually this eliminates opinion. When going from moment to moment and putting into effect one’s inner truth to gain the experiences one is meant to have, opinion on the matter is superfluous. Decisions are made from the transcendent self and executed in the sequence they are meant to – once one gains a master’s level of inner power, there is but one path forwards at every intersection in order to maintain or gain. What one might think and opine about it becomes only distraction, often brought about by fear, worry, insecurities. Imagined or real, they do not contribute to the path.
This brings about something I learned early on an intellectual level from Helén: that the heart is neutral in the center of our being, but at the same time contains all our feelings. In essence, it gives no opinion, really. It just shows us all our feelings with regard to something. We can, of course, use this to frustrate (or pleasure) ourselves intellectually to no end when faced with the road ahead. But rather, when we know something will happen, that we will walk down the road and face that which is to come as part of the growth to greatness, then it is time better spent to simply create the space for these emotions within.
It is the Taoist ang Yogic approach: to be in what happens emotionally, but at the same time distant and observing. You can walk into what comes with feelings and fully experience, but at the same time be at peace and hold balance to walk correctly.
And so, knowing what is to come and feeling all that it entails, I walk forth in meditative silence; to be in it, but not of it.
“The best fighter is never angry.”
― Lao Tzu